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Monday, 30 June 2008

  • URGH.

    i'm not sure if i should keep this site

    since i have...LiveJournal, Blogspot, and MSN space already. =/

    and ooh. don't forget deviantart, which i rarely use now.

     

    hmm. a dilemma! D:

    anyways, high school has finally ended. the uncertainty that comes with it is unnerving, yet exciting at the same time. my thirst for adventure has increased, especially with the summer days going by faster and faster, and my college life will begin in a couple of months.

    thus, to occupy my bored mind, i've been reading and doing various things to keep busy: reading, facebooking, crocheting a blanket, cooking and baking, and exercising with Jane Fonda (:

    Even though high school has ended, some problems are still following me...from junior year. and uncertainty does frighten me...thus, i address this last statement to you, not knowing whether you'll ever read this or not, but rather...to show you what i am thinking, since i cannot say it to you...

    What are we, after everything?

    and

    I'm not sure if i can forget about this. if you want me to, i'll try the best i can. but i need to -know- if you want me to do it.

    and

    ...i don't even know what you're feeling. at least tell me. so then i know if i'm alone or not.

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Thursday, 11 October 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Deep Forest
    see related
    I think I lost my inspiration to write.
    All I can think about is that one specific, and several minor things along the way.
     
    Gosh. I should really stay focused: on school, on life, on family, on friends.
     
    By the way, I noticed...I haven't watched dramas or anime since school started. o.o
    It's rather scary. I haven't finished Stand Up! or Ghost Hunt or caught up with Naruto. ><
     
    Current Mood: Contemplative. ...and RAWR-ish.
     
     
    P.S. Old songs make me smile.
     
     
     

     

Tuesday, 02 October 2007

  • Even though I have nothing to say...

    I will still say something here.
    Maybe I can't get my thoughts to straighten out.
    Maybe they're jumbled,
    and I can't figure out exactly what I want the most and hate most.
    But...I do know...
    That I want to go ahead in life.
     
    ToK has me thinking:
    What's our purpose on Earth?
    If we, compared to the universe, are only invisible specks in the distance,
    Why are we so? Why are we put on Earth?
    If we really are the most intelligent beings,
    does that mean we are the only ones who can....
     
    wish,
    think,
    love,
    hope,
    cry,
    get angry,
    ...?
     
    But besides that,
    what is -my- sole purpose on Earth?
     
    I think...it's more along the lines of...plural: purposes.
    Using what we have, to make the best of our lives,
    and the lives that we touch.
     
    Wish for the best in others,
    Think of the everything,
    Love for who a person is, their faults and good traits,
    Hope for a person, give them light in a dark time,
    Cry for others, and be a shoulder to cry on,
    Get angry to show how much you care( ? ),
    ...?
     
    It sounds scary, thinking we only live so long in comparison to stars, planets...the history of the Earth.
    But...why not make the most of the time we have here on Earth?

Thursday, 27 September 2007

  • ASDF...and the other keys too.

    ASDF.
    I took a break today.
    Not literally of course.
    Because then my grades would drop faster than a ton of feathers~ (haha)
    But I suppose...figuratively.
     
    For that time, I was so angry.
    I mean, unbelievably angry,
    or...maybe it was something else.
    ...Upset? Maybe I felt...totally wiped out. Given up.
     
    A friend commented the other day that I rarely get angry,
    and even then, I don't blow up or anything.
    Is that true? Maybe. I can't really tell for myself.
    Maybe I'm confusing anger with being upset.
    Or frustrated.
    Or sad.
    ...Maybe...D) All of the above?
     
    Huh.
    I'm so confused,
    but it's all my fault I'm confused in the first place.
    Iwao Jenko sings in Scarlet: mune ni afurete tsunoru omoi muri wasurete jounetsu no iro~~
    But it seems so idealistic.
    I try, but I just -know- it won't work. So what then?
    Should I be "going home...where I belong?"
    Or "Have faith, restart! and Hold on!" ?

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